College Was...

       College was a struggle. I fell into vices that I saw coming. I knew of the dangers that were around but I fell under their spell. I thought that I could handle the new experience of freedom and decision making but I was unable to. My grades severely suffered and I landed on academic probation. This is a low point in my academic career but it is not over. I plan to bounce back and recover and make the best out my freshman year. 

Here is a poem of my current reflections 

What is life? What I want from it? 

That’s is what I sit and ask

Why am I sitting in class instead of standing with the mic where I spazz 

Gotta ask... is my dream worth it and is something that will last?

Will it pass will I stray away and end up sitting on in the grass?

Anybody can get gold but are you living by the standard 

Are you putting something into this world or are you living as a cancer 

I’m just looking for my answer 

I’m just tryna date a dancer 

I’m just tryna be happy 

Make parents smile 

And make the funds transfer 

I wanna count money till my hands hurt 

Wanna write raps till I can’t think

Wanna make beats till my eyes burn 

Want it so bad that I can’t sleep 

Got my wheels spinning tryna make moves 

Now success got me afraid too

Got me thinking what if I really make it and I’m really not ready to handle?

I sit and stare at my mantle 

Remember all the things that I can do

I did it once when they said couldn’t 

If I did it then there no reason that I shouldn’t 

Kill any task in front of me 

Let go of the past and get the money trees

Cause life’s hard and it gets worse 

Only time between me and a hearse